IVF #5 = Failure

So this has been a pretty bad month for us. The cycle was pretty bad from the beginning. They ended up doing retreival much earlier than they would have wanted since my estrogen was over 6000. So I ended up with 8 eggs, 5 fertilized, but all were poor quality. They were going to put back 2 and I asked for 3 and the dr said, "Sure, why not? We'll be lucky if even one of these work." So, it wasn't a big shocker when I got the negative result, but of course it hurts anyway. We found out the bad news a week ago. I'm still having issues with it. I don't want to do another IVF. I think 5 failures is enough for me. I was literally ready to jump off a building most of this month. But DH wants me to do more. He's not ready to give up hoping. Of course I'm the one that needs to go through most of this... So anyway, we decided to take a long break (at least 6 months is the plan, don't know if we'll make it) and reevaluate later. After the break, he said if I agree to do more IVFs, we can start the adoption process. Of course I only got him to say that by threatening to leave him if he won't let me adopt, so it wasn't really a win. I just want to know that one day I will have a child, and that one day won't be in ten years. (We're also talking about possibly looking into egg donors, which neither of us is too happy with. He prefers it to adoption, but is still hoping we'll get a miracle and have a baby with both our genes. I think I might prefer adoption, since I'm scared I won't be able to handle being pregnant with someone else's baby for 9 months. And I'm worried it'll hurt me seeing a baby that's DH's but not mine and having everyone make comments about how much it looks like me... And at the same time I also think there may be issues with my uteris and I'm not really ready for more miscarriages. But I guess I'd do it anyway for DH.) So that's our story. Assuming I actually don't end up killing myself within the next few months...