Starting IVF#5

I'm currently doing the birth control/lupron thing to start IVF #5. I'm really not so hopeful for this... What's the chance of IVF #5 working when the proceeding 4 didn't work? I wish I could just give up and stop all this. At what IVF number do I decide I had enough and I just won't have kids of my own?

I can't even miscarry normally...

So today, almost a week after my beta went down to 25, it went up to 67. And still no bleeding... Thursday I'm having an ultrasound, so they can see what's going on and if I'll need a d&c. Great. I can't get pregnant normally and I can't miscarry normally either. I just want this cycle to be over with already.

IVF #4 = Chemical :-(

I went in Sunday (I should have gone in saturday, but since I'm a Sabbath observer they said I could go in the next day). The beta was very low -- at 32. They were still hopeful that maybe it would double and it would be fine. I went in today and my beta dropped to 25. It's definitely a chemical. :-(
I guess I should be happy since this is the first ivf I've had that was positive at all, even if only for a few days... But easier said than done. :-(

Now I've had a miscarriage, an ectopic, and now a chemical. When will I get a pregnancy that works?

IVF #4 update part 2

So there were two good embryos that they used for the transfer and eight others that were so-so. They decided to wait to day 6 to see how those looked to see if they were worth freezing. They didn't end up freezing any of them so I guess they weren't good. :-( So out of our 25 eggs, this is our 1 and only try! Wish us luck!!!

IVF #4 Update

So this cycle took forever-- they kept raising and lowering the amount of follistim I was on since my estrogen kept changing drastically. There were a few points where they almost cancelled the cycle since it went so high, but thankfully, we did make it to the retrieval and without hyperstimulating! The retrieval was on this past Saturday. Tomorrow is the transfer. We had 25 eggs and 15 embryos as of Sunday. I have no idea how many are left or the quality but hopefully we'll have some good ones for tomorrow! This is the most we've ever had so I guess the > 1 month of follistim was worth something! Wish me luck!!

RE #4 & HSG #2 & IVF #4

So I had my consult with the new RE. We're doing an IVF, similar to IVF #1 (with RE #2). He wasn't so concerned about our lack of success with IVFs since he said the last doctor we used had very low success rates in general and his is much better. Of course, he didn't take the last insurance we had, so going to him wasn't really an option previously. We don't really have 10s of thousands of dollars lying around waiting to be used for cycles that don't work anyway.

He also wanted me to do another HSG, since the first one I had was before my ectopic. I had it on Monday and the results were basically inconclusive. He said everything was fine except the right fallopian tube. He couldn't tell with that one. He said the dye did go through so it's definitely not completely blocked, but there might be some scarring from the ectopic. He said that if I was a person with no issues and a 28-day cycle, he'd want to do the laproscopic surgery and see if there's scarring and fix it if there is. But since we need to do IVF anyway, he didn't think there was any point to the surgery since the scarring won't affect IVF (though he said it might have affected the IUIs we did). So basically we're still on for IVF #4. He's having us go on bcp for a month first (we did that for IVF #1 as well). When I went to pick up the bcp from the pharmacy, I also picked up the antibiotic I needed for the HSG. The pharmacist there "needed" to speak to me. She wanted to make sure I knew that if I took those antibiotics at the same time as the birth control pills, the birth control pills might not be as effective. She was very concerned. I nodded and smiled, thinking the whole time that that should be my worst problem. I accidentally get pregnant while on birth control.

More Failures

A few months ago, I decided I should get a consult with another doctor, as my current RE is out of ideas. My new insurance is more accepted, so I made an appointment for a new place that takes this insurance, that in theory has a high success rate. However, their next appointment was 3 months away. Three months is now almost over, so my appointment is on Wednesday. Hopefully, the RE will have a good idea for us.
Anyway, while we were waiting for our appointment, we did another IUI (I needed an IVF break). We found out yesterday that it didn't work. :-( It wasn't really a big shock at this point, but it still hurts anyway.
So that's where we are right now. Same place as always. No where.